Do you believe in love transcending time?
What about soul mates?
Can you forgive , or better yet forget , life’s terrible
truths if you love someone?
What if you’re soul mates?
This book will wipe what you know of love and soul mates
away only to rebuild it!!
6 dark and twisty STARS!!!
*Author Note: This is not your average romance story. Some people will kill for love.*
He’s come to kill me.
I’m a user and abuser of my own body. In my darkest hour I sold my soul to the devil and now I must pay the price. With his gun to my head I have no choice but to listen and obey, but I refuse to go down easily. Nothing is stronger than the will to survive. My instincts kicked into full gear the second he stepped into my motel room.
Except when I look at him I see my own heart staring back at me. A history tainted by blood.
I don’t know his name, but I know he wants me. To save myself I’ll sacrifice my sanity. My body. My soul. Something tells me the x-shaped scar that marks his eye is the only escape I have. He is Mr. X: the man who comes to claim my life. Can I save myself before he demands my heart?
WARNING: This book contains very disturbing situations, dubious consent, breath deprivation, strong language, drugs and alcohol, and graphic violence.
WOW!! I was excited to start this book – I love the author and everything she writes is gold! There’s no way to even compare this to anything out there. Yes, it’s a romance – but like the blurb says “this is not your average romance”. It pulled at everything in me to become a Mr. X fan – not the book – the Hero. And yes, he is definitely a Hero! I quickly came to love the dark and twisty side of Mr. X. The side of him that became obsessed with Jay. That never relented until he had her in his cross hairs and although he didn’t know it yet, began to let his heart take over his mind. Let a little of the black go from his soul. It was riveting, real edge-of-your-seat stuff! I was so excited to finish this book, to keep devouring the pages, but I held off knowing that eventually I’d get to the end and it would be over – and trust me it was really tough. When I reviewed the comments I’d made on Goodreads while in the midst of it, I sound like a crazy woman… “Just started… Holy mother of shit!! I’m confused and anxious in the best ways! Completely drawn into it. It’s so intense and complex right off the bat… EEP! LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!!” And, “I’ll never look at strawberries the same!!! And I loathed Mr X ‘s nickname for Jay. Now… but so much!! It’s dark, twisty, erotic and one hell of a ride so far!!!” Then finally, “Holy shit!! Those are the words on repeat in my head right now! This book featured my heart, bent my mind, tore at my soul then in one foul swoop – put all the pieces back together! I can’t wait to write this review! This book truly had it all… My hat is off to Clarissa Wild! That chick can write!!” Like I said, Crazy – with capital C!
“Time hasn’t had any effect on her. She is still a beauty, a seductress, a sinful dancer, a wild girl, and I am still the ugly monster…”
It’s true that there are very disturbing situations and violence throughout, but I must stress that only through those situations did Mr. X and Jay end up where they were meant to. The way this book is written – with both POV’s and dates listed for flashbacks of their lives – really gave me a sense of time and the losses that were truly tragic and unjust. Those unjust moments for X and the abandonment when it came to Jay, gave them the ultimate foundation of needing each other. I don’t want to give too much of the story away – I abhor spoilers – but I must reveal a small tidbit in order to properly continue. If you don’t want to know… STOP HERE – and go read this now!!
X and Jay knew each other from their much younger days. Their childhood. They played tag together, shared stories, and although the remaining history becomes tainted, they fall for each other. They yearn for each other. But their romance is forbidden. I won’t reveal why as that may give too much but I will say that it was a WTF moment for me. X’s current occupation and lifestyle are what you’d expect from the blurb. But there are parts of him that are completely hidden until he comes face to face with Jay. he Face to face with a woman who stole his heart all those years ago. Parts of him that didn’t exist for even him. X is not the sexy Hero that stands on the rooftop and professes his undying love and affection for all to see and hear. This is a very scarred man, in both appearance and mind. He’s tortured to the very depths of his soul and his heart – well I deduced at times, he just didn’t have one. X was calloused. And only someone who’d walked in his shoes would know why and, more importantly, understand. As the puzzle pieces came into view and I began to put them together… Wow. Just wow. How could any one person survive the life X has had? How does that same person transform into anyone’s Hero? But he does.
“They went after her. That was their first mistake. Involving me was their second mistake. I’m not going to let this go unpunished.”
X knows all that is their history. Never forgot a moment. But Jay has succumbed to a sort of amnesia from an unbelievable accident. Something horrific enough to leave her with no recollection. A past she claims is a ‘huge blur’. When she begins anew – there’s no one she can rely on. There isn’t anyone to call to help her get on her feet and so begins the life of drugs and stripping and prostitution. But this was not her fate. These awful things are, conveniently put in her path making it so she has no other choice. Jay is abundantly strong but she’s had no one tell her she is. No one to show her she can be. And she has more courage than anyone. Yet she has a man with a gun pointed at her and Jay is terrified. She has no idea who this man is. She has no idea why this man wants to kill her. No idea of the memories lost. But something pulls her to him. It’s not a Stockholm Syndrome… it’s more. Much, much more. Every time they touch, every time he kisses her she feels the familiarity. But it’s blocked from her memory. Something keeping it hidden until the right moment.
“It’s strange to feel his hands on me, strange because they remind me of something … or someone … but I have no clue why… It feels familiar and secure. Something I haven’t felt in a long time.”
This book is dark and erotic. The intimate moments will leave you breathless while the dark moments leave you cold, angry, and confused. With Clarissa Wild’s swift and confident writing, it becomes something I couldn’t put down. Something I didn’t want to put down. And this author gives us a little gift at the beginning of every chapter! You’ll love them as much as I did!!! I’m was amazed at the emotions this book pulled from me. Sympathy, confusion, and wonder were the emotions I was surprised by. And the further I got in the book the more I appreciated their history and the reasons for being on the path they both found themselves on. I realized that I enjoyed the conflicting emotions I had. I enjoyed taking the dark and twisty journey. And it’s one I would take again!!